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Thursday, August 7, 2008
Trying to get back into the swing of things
Hello to my fellow online friends!
I haven't logged into this in a long time. This is a major mistake. All summer I've basically not done a darn thing in terms of working out. I guess I could make an excuse and say that I live in Arizona, where it is H.O.T. and working out in this heat really just blows. But this would just be an excuse. One excuse in a list of many. I have a Gazelle right behind me, and the foot pedals are dusty. I haven't used it in a couple months. Actually, there are five bags of clothes sitting on it that I have to take to Goodwill. That will be done today. If there is nothing there to deter me from working out then maybe I'll actually do it!
Ok, so today's weigh in is: 223.4.
Yuck.
I have an appointment tomorrow with an endocrinologist. I went to my primary doctor a couple weeks ago because I strained my neck/shoulder and wanted some relief. She sent me out for labs and a thyroid ultrasound and it turns out that I had a UTI and an enlarged thyroid. I tell ya, my doctor (actually I see the PA) is thorough! So tomorrow I'll find out what's going on with my thyroid. Maybe I'll get put on some pills that'll have me drop some crazy weight? Maybe my metabolism is really screwed up.
Good luck out there!
I haven't logged into this in a long time. This is a major mistake. All summer I've basically not done a darn thing in terms of working out. I guess I could make an excuse and say that I live in Arizona, where it is H.O.T. and working out in this heat really just blows. But this would just be an excuse. One excuse in a list of many. I have a Gazelle right behind me, and the foot pedals are dusty. I haven't used it in a couple months. Actually, there are five bags of clothes sitting on it that I have to take to Goodwill. That will be done today. If there is nothing there to deter me from working out then maybe I'll actually do it!
Ok, so today's weigh in is: 223.4.
Yuck.
I have an appointment tomorrow with an endocrinologist. I went to my primary doctor a couple weeks ago because I strained my neck/shoulder and wanted some relief. She sent me out for labs and a thyroid ultrasound and it turns out that I had a UTI and an enlarged thyroid. I tell ya, my doctor (actually I see the PA) is thorough! So tomorrow I'll find out what's going on with my thyroid. Maybe I'll get put on some pills that'll have me drop some crazy weight? Maybe my metabolism is really screwed up.
Good luck out there!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
What is wrong with me?
I'm sitting here at 4:58AM at work reading a website about PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) which is a condition I have and I am just so overwhelmed. I weighed myself this morning and I was at 223.0 lb. I don't get it. I am trying to eat a little better. I walk my butt off at work. I drink tons of water and I can't even get below 220!
I'm so discouraged. I know I should be upbeat and happy - that is the Tiffany that I project to everyone. People always comment about how happy I always am or how I always have a smile on. I HAVE to do that or I would just drown in the dark thoughts in my head. People don't know that I walk around ashamed of myself and how I look. They don't know that as they are talking to me, all I can think of is "God, what are they really thinking? Do they find me disgusting? Can they see the rolls under my chin? I wonder if they notice all the pimples that keep sprouting up on my face." So instead of letting this show to the world around me, I keep my chin up and run around like all is well in TiffanyLand.
But it's not. I don't like the way I look. It seems to have gotten worse. My skin looks like a war erupted on it. I don't just get small pimples, they seem to come from deep inside and if you are looking at me from the side, they stand out about a mile! My face is becoming scarred from this crap. I can't lose any weight. On the up-side, though... a couple things seem to fit better, so maybe I'm carrying around a little more muscle instead of fat. But holy-Cheetos, I want to drop the weight so bad!
Do you realize I haven't had a period since October??? We're going on 7 months period-free. Now if I was a post-menopausal woman that would be fine... but I'm not. Far from it, actually. I hope. I want to have my last baby. I should have had him or her years ago. I obviously can't get pregnant because of the extra 80 pounds that I'm lugging around. I just realized this morning that if I got pregnant today and had my baby next Feb, I would be 51 when he or she graduated! Poor Danielle would be 14 years older than her brother or sister. What the heck is that crap? But I desperately want another one. I've wanted another one since Lexi was a baby. It wasn't supposed to happen this way. Lexi should have had her little playmate when she was two.
You know, last week I went for a walk around the park after work. It was gorgeous outside, with a strong breeze (actually it was more like gusts of strong wind) and the temperature was just perfect. The park is pretty big around, it took me 20 minuets to walk it. I got the bright idea to start jogging. Big mistake. It hurt. I jogged 1/4 of the distance around the park. I felt like my boobs were going to fall off and as though my uterus was going to fall out. I couldn't breathe and my lungs were on fire. I called Will to tell him I ran the distance and he couldn't understand me because I was wheezing so much. It sucked.
I'm just feeling so down and out of sorts right now. Hopefully I'll straighten my ass up soon.
I'm so discouraged. I know I should be upbeat and happy - that is the Tiffany that I project to everyone. People always comment about how happy I always am or how I always have a smile on. I HAVE to do that or I would just drown in the dark thoughts in my head. People don't know that I walk around ashamed of myself and how I look. They don't know that as they are talking to me, all I can think of is "God, what are they really thinking? Do they find me disgusting? Can they see the rolls under my chin? I wonder if they notice all the pimples that keep sprouting up on my face." So instead of letting this show to the world around me, I keep my chin up and run around like all is well in TiffanyLand.
But it's not. I don't like the way I look. It seems to have gotten worse. My skin looks like a war erupted on it. I don't just get small pimples, they seem to come from deep inside and if you are looking at me from the side, they stand out about a mile! My face is becoming scarred from this crap. I can't lose any weight. On the up-side, though... a couple things seem to fit better, so maybe I'm carrying around a little more muscle instead of fat. But holy-Cheetos, I want to drop the weight so bad!
Do you realize I haven't had a period since October??? We're going on 7 months period-free. Now if I was a post-menopausal woman that would be fine... but I'm not. Far from it, actually. I hope. I want to have my last baby. I should have had him or her years ago. I obviously can't get pregnant because of the extra 80 pounds that I'm lugging around. I just realized this morning that if I got pregnant today and had my baby next Feb, I would be 51 when he or she graduated! Poor Danielle would be 14 years older than her brother or sister. What the heck is that crap? But I desperately want another one. I've wanted another one since Lexi was a baby. It wasn't supposed to happen this way. Lexi should have had her little playmate when she was two.
You know, last week I went for a walk around the park after work. It was gorgeous outside, with a strong breeze (actually it was more like gusts of strong wind) and the temperature was just perfect. The park is pretty big around, it took me 20 minuets to walk it. I got the bright idea to start jogging. Big mistake. It hurt. I jogged 1/4 of the distance around the park. I felt like my boobs were going to fall off and as though my uterus was going to fall out. I couldn't breathe and my lungs were on fire. I called Will to tell him I ran the distance and he couldn't understand me because I was wheezing so much. It sucked.
I'm just feeling so down and out of sorts right now. Hopefully I'll straighten my ass up soon.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Getting back into the swing of things
I've neglected this blog so long, as well as my health. Something has got to motivate me! You know, I just turned 32 and realized that it's been 7 years since I was healthy. SEVEN years! How much of my life have I wasted because I have not cared about my body, my life. How many gatherings have I skipped because I was ashamed of my looks. How many good deals on clothing have I had to skip out on because I couldn't fit them. How many hours have I wasted because I shopped and shopped, only to walk out empty handed because I couldn't find something to fit?
No more. I HAVE to change.
I jumped on my Gazelle today and worked out for 15 minutes. It hurt. The whole time my Flaming Hot Cheetos were calling for me. I ignored them and drank some water.
I weighed in today at 222.2. My goal is to be down to 200 by July 1st.
Wish me well!
No more. I HAVE to change.
I jumped on my Gazelle today and worked out for 15 minutes. It hurt. The whole time my Flaming Hot Cheetos were calling for me. I ignored them and drank some water.
I weighed in today at 222.2. My goal is to be down to 200 by July 1st.
Wish me well!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
212.0 - I've not weighed this little in 2 years!
I'm so excited. I've been watching what I eat and drinking lots of water. This morning I jumped on the scale and I'm at:
212.0
I haven't weighed this little since 2005. I think if I keep it up I'll definately be at 200 by Christmas time!
Tomorrow's my anniversary. I hoped to be 180 by now, but you know what? I'm not going to cry over it. I am happy that I have lost 8 lb so far and I am just going to keep going with that. My husband is losing a little weight too.
Tiffany
212.0
I haven't weighed this little since 2005. I think if I keep it up I'll definately be at 200 by Christmas time!
Tomorrow's my anniversary. I hoped to be 180 by now, but you know what? I'm not going to cry over it. I am happy that I have lost 8 lb so far and I am just going to keep going with that. My husband is losing a little weight too.
Tiffany
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Still plugging on
Ok, first off.... tada!
214.8
I haven't weighed this little in a long time! I am not sure how I'm doing it. I'm just so happy. I try to eat healthier and am drinking a lot less sugar. I drink a lot of water. My head kills me because I need my Pepsi so I allow myself no more than one/day. Some days I go without it though. I am praying that this trend keeps up.
My husband just started that Master Cleanse diet that Krissi tried. He started yesterday. He's ready to throw in the towel today. He's hurting. Bad. Poor guy. :(
214.8
I haven't weighed this little in a long time! I am not sure how I'm doing it. I'm just so happy. I try to eat healthier and am drinking a lot less sugar. I drink a lot of water. My head kills me because I need my Pepsi so I allow myself no more than one/day. Some days I go without it though. I am praying that this trend keeps up.
My husband just started that Master Cleanse diet that Krissi tried. He started yesterday. He's ready to throw in the towel today. He's hurting. Bad. Poor guy. :(
Friday, October 5, 2007
Lost a little more
I haven't posted in such a LONG time. Work's got me crazy. Even my other blog has been neglected.
I was in the ER last week. You can read about it on my other blog if you'd like by clicking here. I have to seriously try to lose weight. My health is failing because of my being so heavy. I weighed in this morning:
216.4
I need to work harder. On paper I've lost almost a pound since last posting, but in reality I went back up to about 223, so I've actually lost about 6 pounds. I need to eat a low-carb diet with lots of veggies and proteins.
I have PCOS. Does anyone else have experience with that? Ok, well I'm off to a gynocologist appointment. Cheers!
Tiffany
I was in the ER last week. You can read about it on my other blog if you'd like by clicking here. I have to seriously try to lose weight. My health is failing because of my being so heavy. I weighed in this morning:
216.4
I need to work harder. On paper I've lost almost a pound since last posting, but in reality I went back up to about 223, so I've actually lost about 6 pounds. I need to eat a low-carb diet with lots of veggies and proteins.
I have PCOS. Does anyone else have experience with that? Ok, well I'm off to a gynocologist appointment. Cheers!
Tiffany
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